Plenty of time to do nothing

Ok, so I haven´t been very active lately - I haven´t even reported all the annoying (and stinking) things that my cats have done in the wrong places (which they have done, the bastards!). Instead I´ve been busy doing nothing.
Suppose that was what I needed.
And it´s not even true. I just haven´t done any paid work for quite a while now. But instead I´ve had a lot of time to think, and to feel miserable, and to feel even more miserable - and slowly begin to feel better again...
What happened? Too much at the same time. Shit I had been running away from finally got to me - and it was a lot more than a full load in the kittylitter box...

Anyway, the month of August was one of the worst months I´ve had to endure in a loooong time, but now it´s September, and right now life feels good! (but since I´m officially depressed, I suppose I should just sit down and wait ´till this feeling goes away...)

Actually, I´m writing this just to let R know that my cats are still doing their best to make my life miserable - but let´s not blame them for the mess I´ve been in for the last few weeks... I caused it myself by believing I was Super Woman and working too hard, for too long. Then Life didn´t make things easier by suddenly forcing me to struggle with some very disturbing, but unavoidable, existential questions - and, well... for a while that was a bit more than I could handle. Of course, the same questions are still without answers, but I seem to be getting used to not having any answers. And some days I can even laugh at the absurdity of the entire human existence.


And now, some more Kitty News:
A few weeks ago, I almost got myself a fifth cat... It was a homeless little thing that a friend left in my house, because he felt sorry for the lost and hungry creature (- and he claimed he couldn´t adopt any kitten, although he has only two cats from before - two big ones, that is true, but anyway, four normal size cats are more than two big ones, whichever way you look at it...).
The cat was here for one day, and I just fell in love with the tiny thing! I had almost decided to keep it if no owner showed up. But unfortunately somebody did come and get it! [Maybe I will adopt another little cat later this fall. I do have "doctor´s order" to do things that cheer me up.
Well, that little cat certainly did!]