In Helsinki

These last weeks have been absolutely crazy, and yesterday before I took the train to Helsinki (where I am right now) I told everybody I saw that if I survive until Friday I´m going to celebrate in such a way that the hang-over will last for at least 3 days...

My present state of mind doesn´t have to do only with the radio documentary I´m editing this week (even though the fact that I haven´t been able to get a grip on what I´m actually doing - and why - has been hanging like a black cloud over my head since the beginning of April...), but for some reason all kinds of old shit has come back to haunt me lately, so I´m exhausted. I feel like a tired old woman. And that´s what I am. I just sometimes seem to forget..

No, I must admit, I´ve had a lot of fun also, these last weeks, so I shouldn´t complain. It´s just that too many weird things have been happening a little bit to close to each other. And it takes time to deal with all of it, mentally.
One day I´ll be able to laugh at this crazy spring, I´m sure...
But not yet.

Now I have to go to my hotel room and try to get some sleep... Somehow I must survive until Friday so I can celebrate - if there will be a reason te celebrate...
(of course there will be! I have to stop my negative thinking...)

Stockholm

So, finally I went to Stockholm, for the first time this year. It´s not that I have been avoiding the capital of Sweden, but since I´ve been busy going to El Hierro during the first months of this year, I just haven´t had the time to go and visit my husband - but he has been visiting me and the cats quite a few times, so... what was it I was planning to write? Anyway, when I arrived in Stockholm, the city was more or less as I left it in December - cold and rainy... As if autumn had never ended. Meanwhile, the weather was nice and warm in Nykarleby. (Why the hell am I going on and on about the weather? Probably because it sucked - and because I don´t really know what to say about the rest... )
Guillaume was with me on this trip, and it was his first visit to Sweden. Initially this visit to Stockholm was planned in February, because of the Calexico consert at Berns on April 30th. But then in the end two of the persons who were most eager to go to the consert couldn´t come - so young Guillaume ended up spending a lot of time with "old people"... (It was a very good consert, though)
When I asked G how he had liked his trip, he politely said it was "nice" - but my feeling is that he was slightly bored, at least part of the time. Should not be my problem, but I felt sort of repsonsible for having taken him there in the first place. But of course, he was the one who wanted to go marching with the Anarcho-Syndicalists on May 1st... And he did. But he didn´t participate in the "riots" in the afternoon...
So, I don´t know.
My husband unfortutantely had to work on Sunday, because of the king´s birthday - but we also got to spend some time together... But maybe not enough, this time.
Have to do something about that.
Now I have to work, for a change...